(on time...) 10 on Tuesday

1) Still at my job. Today I spoke with my my coworker/supervisor (same man) and pretty much laid it on the line that I wasn't happy with the way things were going lately. He admitted that things are kind of crazy here (new overall department head and we're still making adjustments) and apologized. I'm giving them til my 1 year review (February) to make me happy again...

2) Been having the craziest dreams lately. Most involve the children from church being in my care and acting like hellions. Last night's dream had me battling a four year old throwing things off the roof and his mother who thought I was the problem for not controlling him better. I'd like to make it clear that these are just dreams, my kids at church are good kids and none have gotten on the roof to my knowledge...

3) My weekend with Alana and Roc was wonderful and full of sweet chico-stick (thx Roc!!!) goodness! Pics to come once Alana decides to share... ;-P

4) I'm going to my original hairdresser today. I'm a little nervous b.c my last appt I had a "hair affair" and tried out a new beautician (she was quite expensive and didn't do as good of a job), so I'm hoping that the curly do throws off my original and she just thinks that no one's touched this head since her...

5) I was going to make dry Russian Tea mix for the people at work as a gift, but KJ convinced me that a gift with instant gratification and no work (b/c going to the water machine and getting hot water is work!!!!) would be better. So I'm making bags of mints and chocolates to give with cards. See I'm nice. Even when I want the building to explode in a ball of flames, I still think of the good feeling it is to give during the holiday season. :-)

6) We had a work give-away (them trying to get rid of past products and samples) and I was able to score back pillows for all the elderly members at church! And to think I was just going to pass out Cmas cards with candy canes. I knew there had to be a reason I came back in to work yesterday...

7) My family will be here this weekend and I'm extremely excited about squishing them all into our little home for some Cmas, J style (which has yet to be established since this is my first official Cmas as a J). I like knowing that they'll be surprised by some of their gifts since Kj's made it his personal mission to try and guess everything that I've tried to get him in secrecy... unfortunately he's pretty good, but I'm trying not to let on.

8) I have the worst pain in the top of my femur. Either I'm being beat in my sleep, or I have a bone eating bacteria... I'll keep you posted on either, it's going to take a little investigating.

9)I'm almost finished Cmas shopping and tonite my plan is to stitch names on some stockings...

10) I'm really grateful for my online support. When I come back to a more content state of mind I can clearly assess how "on my side" you all are and it really makes my heart feel good. Thanks again a million and two for your comments, emails, calls, and thoughts in regards to the last post. I'm all better now. For now. I felt like it was fair to have a "good talking to" to someone else in my work relationship. From here on out, let's just say I've given them fair warning...

lots of lovin everyone!!!!

Sooo,

I've come to realize that the reasoning for one situation doesn't always apply to a similar situation... or does it?
Work is like a relationship.
• I would NEVER stay with a man who didn't respect me or value my opinion.
• I would NEVER stay with a man who I felt presented constant opportunities for me to feel less of a person.
• I would NEVER stay with a man who made me want to run out the door screaming/crying 85% of the time.
• I would NEVER stay with a man just because I liked his friends.
• I would NEVER stay with a man who caused me to have my friends "talk me off the ledge of insanity" with the "it's not you, it's him line" constantly
• I would NEVER stay with a man who gave his best to my friends but saved only the crap for me.
• I would NEVER stay with a man just because he gave me money. (In fact, I'd be appalled at the implication)
• I would NEVER stay with a man in an unhappy situation just because I didn't know what the future had in store.
• I would NEVER stay with a man because my past relationships only lasted a year and I didn't want the "track record"
• I would NEVER stay with a man just to have the facade of happiness and security, but be truly drained and miserable.
• I WOULD NEVER. (insert here that I'm sooo thankful for KJ b/c making this list was also a little reminder of how happy I am to be with him. Because he gives me the Good Times, I can clearly see the Bad Times...)

Now, to even a crazy person, it seems as though the above reasonings can be applied to a job. Don't you think?
Soooo, why do I get up every morning and come to this place for 8 hours??? Why do I spend most of my time in a miserable situation that leaves me questioning my ability.
Why have I let this "relationship" drag wayyyy past the good times. When the tides turn and people change, doesn't that allow one to have the optional OUT. The "this is not what I signed up for....I'M OUT!" card.

I promised you all I wouldn't complain anymore. I'm not. Just asking for your prayers that I'll look out for me and do what's best for me in this situation. That I'll heed to God's answers and either find peace or a new paycheck supplier. Sometimes there's that moment of hesitation before a break-up even when YOU KNOW the relationship is DEAD or PARASITIC. I think fear keeps us from letting go instantaneously. Good thing I'm more annoyed than scared huh?

On the up side. Cmas cards are going in the mail (yep, this is roz and it is the 15th) and my Lana-Lana and her Roc will be here this afternoon. The horizon of a wonderful weekend is in view. It's going to take a lot for me not to stuff KJ and myself in their trunk to be smuggled back across the state line come Sunday. ;-D Weekends are NEVER long enough.

Happy (trying my hardest over here) Friday!!!!

Okay... here's my confession...

I'm an iTune junkie... there.
I am! I am!!! Shamefully, I've probably explore, test out, and purchased more music at work than I spend time working. sigh. ;-)
I love that with the simple click of a button I can own 1, 2, 3 or more cds. I had to put myself on a ban during the holiday b/c this is the time for giving right??? Oh, but it's soo hard. I'm tempted every Tuesday (free music tuesday) when iTunes gives you 1 to 3 freebie songs. Yep, they bait me and reel me in. Not to mention that they give me their stinkin suggestions for what they think I would like, and dog-gone it , to have never met me, they know me sooooo well.

Please iTunes, tempt another poor music hungry soul so that I might be able to have $ to actually buy gifts for others... unless that is, they would like a burned copy of music with no cover, but a handy cd sleeve... hehehe

Here's some that I scooped last night that I'm itching to add to my collection with one click:

1) Justin Timberlake
2) Nelly Furtado
3) Fergie
4) John Mayer
5) Dixie Chicks
6) Sarah McLachlan Cmas
7) India Aire
8) Gwen Steffanie
and soooo many more...

Those are just some of the ones I found on my own.
These are the ones that the kind people at iTunes have picked just for me...


Do you see what I'm up against?!?!?!

Happy Wednesday!

Laid back weekend.

Well, this past weekend was great. We jump started it off with Kj's company party on Friday night. We ended up with a coffee grinder (of which neither of us drink...) ahhh... the joys of Dirty Santa. We were then able to catch Ross before they closed (open til 11 might I add. One more reason to love that store) and I got a few more Cmas gifts. Good Friday evening if I do say so myself. ;-)

Saturday was even better. I didn't step foot out of the house once! i stayed in my pj's until around 1:00 when I decided to shower and put on comfy clothes. Seriously the best. We watched 4 movies and I watched 1 on tv.
1) Miami Vice: ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE!!! Jamie Foxx should be shame!!!! Kj almost lost all of his movie picking privileges with that one. Bad plot. Bad acting. Bad cinematography. No action. just plain stinky!
2) Pirates of the Caribbean I: This was a prerequisite for me to watch the second one. It's good. I like Johnny Depp and the movie has a lot of sarcastic humor, which I get.
3) Pirates of the Caribbean II: Good except for I didn't care for the ending. There will be a third one and I hate how movies set you up to know and expect that. Surprise me, please.
4) North Country: This is the movie with Charlize Theron battling sexual harassment in the coal mine industry. Soooo good! Kj called it a girl power movie, and it was! It really makes you appreciate people who refuse to be treated unfairly and do something about it, helping others who weren't strong enough to help themselves in the process. Again, so good.
5) Mean Girls (on tv, had to watch by myself b/c it was teenage girl drama) it's cute. A good mindless movie to end on. Still confused as to how Lindsey Lohan, queen of Disney movies has such self made drama in her real life...

Sunday was church and in between services I tried to get caught up on a few little things so not to be swamped thru the week.

Yep, a pretty great weekend.

This week is ticking by slowly. I believe that I need a vacation. Early retirement is probably more like it.... hummm...

Happy Tuesday all!

It's Friday, It's Friday, Yea, Yea, Yea

5) I'm pretty sure that God's giving me the okay to leave this job and go back to freelancing... I'll keep you posted. (Tasha, I haven't forgot about you, I promise. Look for an email this weekend)

4) KJ's work Cmas party is tonight and we have to bring a $10 gift for dirty Santa (We opted for a TGI Fridays gif card). I'm NOT good at dirty Santa. Plus I believe in the past everyone gives a decent gift except for the 1 person who brings in old socks or something. I'm thinking of sticking our gift card inside of a crappy gift like something from our giveaway closet at work, but I hate creating a situation that could lead to awkwardness (another phobia of mine), so we'll probably just give the gift card as is. ;-)

3) If you can believe it, I'm almost finished with Cmas Shopping. Yep! My goal was to be wrapping presents by the time we got to the double digit dates (the 10th) and I just may make it!
(Mom, you think you want to get your list in before Santa closes up shop??? hehehe)

2) I discovered the store Ross last night and I LOVEEEEEE IT. It's way better then the TJMaxx that's an hour away. Loved it sooo much that I'm going back tonight after dinner for some more Cmas shopping goodness.

1) Look who's coming to visit next weekend! Lana-lana and Roc!!!!!!!!!!!! Uber excited. (uber is my new word, not sure where I got it from, but I'm testing it out...)



Happy Friday! Have a great weekend!

Our Home for the Holidays

So somehow some of my stock of Cmas decorations from years past didn't make it across the state line. I'm not calling any names...
Or maybe it's just that it takes way more to do a house than a 1 bedroom apt, b/c last year I felt like my home was bursting at the seams with Cmas.
Whatever the reason, this year we're keeping it simple. ;-) Christmas is not about competition. There's no competing with the parents who are determined to show their children that Santa WILL stop at their house because he can see it glowing from the North Pole. We live sandwhiched between these two houses mind you...hehehe I'm not making fun, in time we may very well be those parents who pay an $800 electric bill in Dec to see the reflected sparkle of multi colored lights in Mini Kj and Mini Roz's eyes... Just not this year. This year is a rebuilding year where we wait til after the holidays to grab the 75% off decoration specials so that next year we can blow them out the water. Again, I repeat, Christmas in not about competition. But we also weren't going to be labeled the no-kid having lame-o-s with coal for hearts that don't possess and ounce of holiday spirit. So without further adieu.... let me present...... THE Roz & Kj HOLIDAY SPIRIT DECOR!!!!!

Happy Wednesday everyone!

ps- 6ft is not near as tall as I thought it was. This is our makeshift tree until my real one makes it from mom's garage to our house (a few days before Cmas) and I thought it would be towering over me. I was wrong. hehehe (Don't fret, I'm in search of a tree skirt to cover our tree's naked legs...)

Sacrafice...

For the sake of "matching" I am wearing my grey slacks with the broken zipper. Not even just a front zipper where a button could do the duty of keeping the pants on. nope. These zip on the side and that's it. This poor little zipper is the only thing standing between me and "very unappropriate office attire". And it's barely hanging on.
sigh.
You may wonder why I would post about this, but as I sit here with a bladder about to disconnect and float up to my neck b/c I foolishly have drank 2 cup fulls of grapejuice and a delish mug full of eggnog, it occurred to me. This morning as I was pulling these pants from the bottom of my "when I get a sewing machine i will fix these" pile I KNEW that it was a bad, bad, bad idea. They were at the bottom of that pile for a reason... but alas... they're the only pants that are the perfect shade of grey to match the shirt that I was determined to wear today. s-a-c-r-a-f-i-c-e...

And no, I'm not even going to risk it, b/c last time I wore these to work (thinking that the broken zipper was no big deal) when I took a potty break, my zipper decided that it absolutely was not coming back up and I had to wear my work sweater around my office which just so happened to be 90 degrees that day. Yep, I learned my lesson.
...or did I? maybe this should be titled Stupidity... ;-)

Happy Tuesday all!

Got this from Tricey:

A (age of your first kiss?)

15. And I had braces, so I was pretty positive that my next one wouldn't come til I was 20. Thankfully I was wrong.

B (band you're listening to?)

Si*Se ~ love them. heard one of their songs on One Tree Hill and I've been hooked.

C (crush?)

KJ. The stalking doesn't stop after marriage. hehehe I sometimes catch my self just watching him at the computer or on that playstation and sigh... you know that ole' giddy feeling. The one that makes liking someone worth while even when there's uncertainty if they like you back in the beginning. Yep, that's the one.

D (favorite dessert?)

Ummm, right now Eggnog. Love that stuff! And look out b/c Publix has a lactose free version that I'm sure they'd feel the dent in sales if I quit drinking it...

E (easiest person to talk to?)

Liz. She always just gets it you know...

F (favorite ice cream?)

Ohhh, German chocolate (Baskin Robbins used to make) or the Dacquri Ice Sorbet (also a Baskin Robbins treat)

G (gummy worms or bears?)

bears. Harbo please. We used to eat them in Germany growing up and they're a little harder (less squishy) then any other brand.

H (happiest moment?)

I'm blessed b.c wayyyy too many moments came to mind to just single out one.

I(instruments?)

the clarinet! Yep, these jaws were made for tooting.

J (junior high?)

Oak Park for 6th grade and Cedar Ridge for 7th and 8th

K (kids?)

None yet

L (longest car ride ever?)

From AL to NC. Over and over again... 12 glorious hours of family memories

M (messy place in your house?)

The office/KJ's room. Seriously, 2 home gyms??? Yep it was bound to happen. I've just given up the room. I'm painting it Crimson if you don't believe me!

N (nicknames?)

Roz, RaRa, Roz-matoz, Rosie

O (one wish?)

for my loved ones to live full and happy lives

P (phobias?)

Knocking my teeth out

Q (quote?)

Bless his/her heart. I say that a lot. Generally when I have no idea what other kind of comment I could make about some of the absurd things I hear.

R (reason to smile?)

Don't need a reason. Waking up is good enough. ;-D

S (song you last sang?)

Samford and Son - I'm a musical parrot (you hum a note and I'll give you the entire song, or atleast try) and someone in my office was humming it and now it's stuck in my mind.

T (time you got up today?)

5:25 I even managed to hit the gym this morn... if you saw this ole' bod, you'd know that I'm not braggin. More like a confession hehehe ;-)

U (where are you?)

At work.

V (victorious moment?)

Letting go of a "friend" that was everything but. No regrets b/c I handled it with respect even though I was shown none.

W (worst habit?)

Picking at my nails. I'm also horrible at finishing a person's sentence if I feel as though he or she is talking too slow. Rude I know...I'm working on it!

X (x-rays you've had?)

Other than my teeth, not a one.

Y (yoga or yoda?)

Yoga, I'm not exactly sure what yoda is...

Z (zodiac sign?)

Taurus the bull. And yes, I've been told that I can be quite stubborn...

Just a quick word...

to let you know that I'm ALIVE. Sheesh, it's been ages since I posted and I'm sorry to have pulled the loop right from under you again. I'll try to get us all up to speed soon. Just not today! I'm at work and the work I avoided this morn (just wasn't feeling creative) is comming to bite me in the rear end as I prepare for a meeting at 3. Shows you my priorities... it's 1:31 and I thought, let me blog before someone sends out the search hounds. hehehe Yep, work is my #5, never the #1. Too many important things and people to let work be the #1, 2, 3... anywho.

Thanksgiving was great (a few pics are coming) and now I'm in the process of trying to decorate for C-mas on a budget. Yep, it was looking a little bootleg for a moment, but last nite I had some revelations and I think I'm on to something (again, pics will come soon, I promise).

Sooooo, happy Friday!
Hope you have a fabulous weekend!

oh yeah- I did manage to get those Thanksgiving cards in the mail and I belive that everyone had theirs by the 27th. ;-) Gotta love a Roz Deadline.